More

I want more than this
So much of life I miss
I'm worth more than this
Got to find my bliss

Is it the people,
the places
the things I still can't see
That cut like
a deep knife
leaving scars all over me
Why can't I
be better
at letting my soul be
When all I
keep wanting
is to set myself free

I want more than this
So much of life I miss
I'm worth more than this
Got to find my bliss

I keep walking
and hoping
that one day I will find
The moment,
the person
who'll bring me peace of mind
Who'll know me
and see me
and never leave me behind
Who won't dream
without me
who'll give my life more time

Because I want more than this
There's so much of life I miss
And I'm worth so much more than this
Life's incomplete till I find my bliss...

Knowing

Some consider her fate impossible, but she speaks of it with a certainty that sounds superior because she knows the truth. Blue will lead her to the sound that will protect her for a lifetime. And finally, she will rest... safe.

Past

It is the lack of fear that causes more concern than having it.
Fear keeps you safe, hardens your heart
Without fear, there are tears and pain because the heart swells
It fills with love and compassion and opens itself
An open heart allows the soul to be breached - dangerous
Who understands the need for fear?

She'd analyzed the words - her own - before, of course... but her perspective was different now. Their meaning changed as her eyes adjusted to her current visions. No longer contradicting them, she now embraced them as truth. Her mind and her path both predetermined...

Bye, now...

She told you what would happen
Warned you that she wouldn't stay
Yet you still wanna act like
You never expected today

She warned you, she don't need you
Now she's gone...
Oh, she warned you, she don't want you
She moved on...

So let go of the memories
Cause she already has
Let go of the heartache
You're already memories past

Oh, she warned you, she don't need you
Now she's gone...
Darling, she warned you, she don't want you
She moved on...

So many reasons for the words. So many souls for them to apply to - with a a plethora of meanings behind them. And she means them in every way imaginable. She's tired of being the forgotten soul. She's tired of being the invisible acquaintance. She's tired of being the reliable shoulder when there's never one for her to rest her head upon. She is on a path to becoming the person she's always wanted to see in the mirror. Everyday, she sees more of who she really is looking back at her - the mask dropping from its long held place. She understands now. The one piece that is still missing is closer than ever before. Her waiting serves a greater purpose and her joy is immeasurable. For all these reasons, it is time to say good-bye. She's not coming back.

"So long, and thanks for all the fish."

Reminders

She remembers why she wants to let go of everything and everyone, to disappear. She wouldn't be running this time, just leaving. Besides, if no one sees her when she's there, will they even notice when she's gone? She doesn't think so. It won't matter, in the end. So she might as well...